BiographyI'm an ardent student of human nature, a writer,
a spiritual anthropologist studying consciousness, and a hypnotherapist. |
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Cultural Background and Education
Born in Budapest to Hungarian parents, I was, however, early on exposed to a different language and culture. At the age of three, with my mother we moved to Germany (DDR) - after my father escaped the communist block to Sweden. Perhaps this was when my love for cultural diversity and the nomadic life began. (Later, as an adult, I moved to Austria, the U.S., magical Ireland, Mexico and England, where I spent the longest time in one place - 10 years).
Also early on, my daemon began to reveal about the nature of my later work. Even before I learned to read and write, my little hands would grab a pen and I filled empty sheets of copy paper with gibberish "letters," calling it "my writing." From the beginning of my life, I also felt bewildered about the nature of our existence. In Kindergarten, I found my first Anam Cara (to use the Celtic expression for a kindred soul-friend). Together we would sit in the corner and watch this absurd game teachers and toddlers were playing, while we asked ourselves:
"How on Earth did we get here? And why? What are we doing here - really?"
Growing up, however, like many creative, spiritually inclined people, I felt huge pressure from society to give up "dreaming," be more "rational," and find a socially smooth, materially secure occupation. In my attempt to normalize my life, I went to study law at the University of Vienna and began to work as a lawyer. During these years, I developed a kind of "shamanic illness" arising from the refusal to follow the call of the invisible world. My symptoms began to ease as I found a way to work on a Ph.D. thesis in social anthropology during which I could learn about indigenous ways of life and altered states of consciousness. Later, in London, I obtained a post-graduate diploma in clinical hypnotherapy which allowed me to enter my highest path of soul work.
Also early on, my daemon began to reveal about the nature of my later work. Even before I learned to read and write, my little hands would grab a pen and I filled empty sheets of copy paper with gibberish "letters," calling it "my writing." From the beginning of my life, I also felt bewildered about the nature of our existence. In Kindergarten, I found my first Anam Cara (to use the Celtic expression for a kindred soul-friend). Together we would sit in the corner and watch this absurd game teachers and toddlers were playing, while we asked ourselves:
"How on Earth did we get here? And why? What are we doing here - really?"
Growing up, however, like many creative, spiritually inclined people, I felt huge pressure from society to give up "dreaming," be more "rational," and find a socially smooth, materially secure occupation. In my attempt to normalize my life, I went to study law at the University of Vienna and began to work as a lawyer. During these years, I developed a kind of "shamanic illness" arising from the refusal to follow the call of the invisible world. My symptoms began to ease as I found a way to work on a Ph.D. thesis in social anthropology during which I could learn about indigenous ways of life and altered states of consciousness. Later, in London, I obtained a post-graduate diploma in clinical hypnotherapy which allowed me to enter my highest path of soul work.
"It wasn't politics which brought the Communist dictatorship to an end: it was a change of mind. People in my country began to make jokes about the regime, stand up comedians became liberators. |
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My Work
When I was an exchange student in Dublin, one day I walked back from the sea-shore and heard a powerful, voiceless voice calling me to "start writing!" (Interestingly, as I later learned, this was at the same place where James Joyce received inspiration to write Ulysses.) The moment was so grand that I went back to my room and sat down to write what became my first novel. It took me years and I always worked at night in secrecy, as doing something dark and forbidden.
These night-time (candle-lit and incense-infused) writing sessions, which I held religiously every night, no matter how busy or crazy my day-time life as a lawyer became, became not only birth-places for stories. They opened up the invisible world for me:
the world of ideas, archetypes, internal and kosmic energies.
Today it is my work to explore the various manifestations of consciousness
through the human experience.
When I'm doing consciousness research, hypnotic sessions, or creative writing, these are just seemingly different things. In truth, they are explorations from different angles (theory, practice, and artistic expression) of the same thing:
the evolution of consciousness through the human experience.
These night-time (candle-lit and incense-infused) writing sessions, which I held religiously every night, no matter how busy or crazy my day-time life as a lawyer became, became not only birth-places for stories. They opened up the invisible world for me:
the world of ideas, archetypes, internal and kosmic energies.
Today it is my work to explore the various manifestations of consciousness
through the human experience.
When I'm doing consciousness research, hypnotic sessions, or creative writing, these are just seemingly different things. In truth, they are explorations from different angles (theory, practice, and artistic expression) of the same thing:
the evolution of consciousness through the human experience.
Spiritual Background
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From the earliest times in this life, somehow I was always aware that there was something more to reality than meets the eye. Yet, it took me a series of spiritually relevant experiences, including powerful out-of-body journeys, which prompted me to dedicate my life to the study and pursuit of the miraculous. I came to understand that such thing is only possible if we turn the mainstream paradigm around and consider consciousness as fundamental and
matter derivative of consciousness. |
"My first memory is of Emptiness all surrounding me and filling the dark - but it was not an empty emptiness, rather an Emptiness pregnant with all possibilities of creation. In a strange way I could feel all the vast distances of space with my whole being. One night out of the darkness a huge wheel came towards me turning and turning ... showing me many-many pictures ... scenes perhaps from past lives or lives yet to come. Many years later, when I traveled to Nepal, I found the Buddhist prayer wheels in Kathmandu very similar to it." |
There is nothing more important than living your authentic life. Listen to the deepest, wildest voice within - even if it's inconvenient, even if it leaves you poor or unpopular - listen to that voice and your life will forever be magic. You will wake up every morning with a sense of adventure and excitement, and you will forever be grateful for that "eccentric privilege" life truly is.
